Monday, January 3, 2011

A look back at 2010

In 2010, I gained a nephew, Clayton Robert Cockrell on December 1st. I lost some of my organizational skills somewhere late in the year. I stopped letting other people's negativity affect me, even though it took me half the year to do so! I started getting in touch with my crafty/creative side. I was hugely satisfied by my ability to re-create things I see online and in magazines, much cheaper than I could buy them. I am so embarrassed that I let a few people have such a negative impact on my life and on my health. Once again, my mouth said yes to too many things my mind really wanted to say no to. Once again, I am ending the year stronger than I started it. The biggest physical difference between me last December and this December is about 15 pounds. The biggest psychological difference between me last December and this December is I have to work at being optimistic, instead of it just coming naturally. I loved how much closer my husband and I became this year. Why did I spend even two minutes letting someone's selfishness hurt me? I should have spent more time spending quality time with my husband. I regret not leaving work on time so that I could spend more time with my husband, more often. I will never regret spending time with my friends and family. I worried way too much about things (and people) that I cannot change. I didn’t send out cards to my friends nearly as often as I should have. Losing two pregnancies nearly drove me crazy. The most relaxing place I went was just our bedroom, snuggled up next to my husband. Why did I not unpack and set up the house when we first moved in? The best thing I did for someone else was getting over my negative feelings and make a special event really special for her. The best thing I did for myself was let people help me, instead of trying to do everything on my own. The best thing someone did for me was being the rock I needed him to be. The one thing I’d like to do again, but do it better, is be a good wife. Happy New Year! (Fill-in-the-blank template from Mary Schmich at The Chicago Tribune)


Anonymous said...

Girl you are such an inspiration! You make me cry all the time with how sentimental and caring you are. Know that we always love you and are here for you! I wish I could take all your pain away, but believe me when I say that I understand and things will get better.

Love you sis!

Amanda said...

Morgan, you are an amazing and strong woman. Do not let anyone get you down. You are the sweetest and most thoughtful person that I know. I am so sorry for the pain that you've gone through and you and Darren are constantly in my prayers. We love ya'll and are extremely thankful to have ya'll in our lives.