Thursday, November 18, 2010

Rough Patch

Two weeks ago today, I had another miscarriage. That's the second one in just a short five months. D and I are heartbroken but are trying to remain optimistic in terms of another pregnancy.

We went in to see our fertility specialist and he recommended having some testing done to see if there are any underlying factors that would have caused this miscarriage. We went in last week to both have blood taken (they took one vial of blood from Darren and 17 vials of blood from me!!!) and it has been sent off to be tested. They are going to perform a series of about 30 tests on it, to see if there is anything going on that they can fix. Their main concerns are chromosome abnormalities, blood clotting issues, un-wanted antibodies in my blood, or hormone issues.

We are trying to be patient while awaiting the results, which should be available in about 3 weeks. Of course, that's easier said that done. In the meantime, we're continuing to pray that we will find some answers and hoping for the best.

I wanted to write this today, because I know that everyone deals with things differently and I know that so many people deal with things like this quietly and privately but I think that sometimes it helps if people talk about it. I know that it's a lot easier for me to deal with this if I can talk to other people about it and hear that I'm not alone in this. The thing that is most surprising to me during all of this, is how many of my friends and family, or friends of our friends have gone through rough patches and dark hours like D and I have. When things like this happen to me, I feel so alone and I think sometimes as women our first instinct is to wonder what we could have done differently or what we did wrong and while talking to all of these women - its easier to understand that there wasn't and we didn't. It's not our fault and that these things are difficult and life and pregnancy is a lot more fragile than we let ourselves believe sometimes.

So, in light of all of that - I just want to put this out there... If there is anyone out there, that ever needs someone to talk to or you know a friend or a coworker or a sister, or whomever that is going through something similar and she needs to talk - send her my way. I would be happy to talk to any of them and let them know that they aren't alone.

Sometimes, we just need to we're not alone through the rough patches.


Amanda said...

Morgan, I am so sorry for your loss and I am here for you to talk too.You are one of the strongest women that I know! I will continue to pray for you and Darren.

Melissa Miller said...

Morgan I'm so sorry. Believe me I understand as I have had several myself. They are very painful to deal with. My thoughts and are with you for a successful pregnancy and beautiful child.

My sister went through years of fertility issues and finally with IVF had my nephew Noah. Then out of the blue became pregnant with Grayson with no help at all. They are now so busy with a 3 and 1 year old. Whew! They never expected it in a million years to have one healthy son much less two. I firmly believe it will happen for you all when the time is right.

Good luck and stay positive!
~Melissa :)

PS Ask your doctor about progesterone unless you have already.

Melissa Miller said...

I meant to add the word *prayers* in my first paragraph. *Smiles*